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I officially mentally 'killed' a project that I'd been trying to work with since high school. I've talked to a few people who read this journal about it briefly, and it's something I was invested in, but I really can't get passionate about it. It was a writing project of indeterminate length set in a world I was never really able to pin down. The more I thought about it, the fuzzier it became. I realized that it was, at heart, several projects and none of them were going anywhere.
It doesn't really matter what it was, but for those curious, it was the sci-fi thing that I had been trying to puzzle out forever, now. It comes down to 'I don't want to write it, and I have no incentive to do so.', so I'm just kind of taking notes and trying to determine if there's anything I do want to write in particular.
I feel surprisingly good about this decision, to stop trying, but I feel oddly about the characters I'm leaving in perpetual limbo. Most of them were never very fleshed out, and so it's a relief to let them go, too. One in particular is an interesting exception. Atol is a character that's really taken a life of his own. When I sat down to create my first Cam LARP character, I tried to pull a name from somewhere that wasn't going to be a trite, overused Shadow name for Mage. I hadn't really put too much thought into it, so I determined I'd cross over some of my character ideas from one of my less likeable characters from my long time novel attempt. I always enjoyed writing Atol dialog, even if I couldn't get anything else going. Thanatos02 is my common screenname and avatar, but Atol is my secondary.
Kind of a strange set of circumstances. His project killed, the character continues to live on seperetly. He may still get his own work, then.
It doesn't really matter what it was, but for those curious, it was the sci-fi thing that I had been trying to puzzle out forever, now. It comes down to 'I don't want to write it, and I have no incentive to do so.', so I'm just kind of taking notes and trying to determine if there's anything I do want to write in particular.
I feel surprisingly good about this decision, to stop trying, but I feel oddly about the characters I'm leaving in perpetual limbo. Most of them were never very fleshed out, and so it's a relief to let them go, too. One in particular is an interesting exception. Atol is a character that's really taken a life of his own. When I sat down to create my first Cam LARP character, I tried to pull a name from somewhere that wasn't going to be a trite, overused Shadow name for Mage. I hadn't really put too much thought into it, so I determined I'd cross over some of my character ideas from one of my less likeable characters from my long time novel attempt. I always enjoyed writing Atol dialog, even if I couldn't get anything else going. Thanatos02 is my common screenname and avatar, but Atol is my secondary.
Kind of a strange set of circumstances. His project killed, the character continues to live on seperetly. He may still get his own work, then.
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