Game Induced Stress

I've been kind of doing an adventure-of-the-week thing in Exalted for a while, and we've just now settled into the real nation-building. To one extent or another, I feel I'm running a little cross-purpose to what my group wants, because where I intended to do a kind of epic adventure, they're settling into manse construction. It's not that I'm not enthusiastic, it's just that I get my wires crossed sometimes. The game feels like it's coming together, but I'm constantly stressed because I'm not used to this number of people playing at once. Now that the play group is a lot more stable, it's not so bad though, so I'm pretty excited about it.

In some ways, I feel like I'm fighting the system a bit. It's very specific in some cases and very vague in others. There's a lot of information in weird areas, so I'm constantly running into data I didn't even realize existed until just now. Will I be a master of Exalted-Fu by the time I'm done? Man, maybe.

I had been feeling a little burnt out on STing, and wanted some time to get my feet under me for the next big session, but as the next one draws nearer, I guess I'll re-evaluate how I feel then.

Feh.

On Tuesday, I didn't feel like doin' shit and I don't feel like it today, either. I don't think I'll really be up for anything tomorrow, but at least I can stay up doing nothing all night, and I don't feel like I'm fucking my weekday schedule up. It probably sounds like I'm cross, but I'm not except so far that I typically feel that I need to be doing something, and I don't want to work towards any goal in particular this week, so I kinda feel like I've got my wires crossed.

My heat is still out. I didn't think much of it because shit like this happens. You just suck it up and deal with it, sometimes wrapped in a blanket as need be. It's chilly but not freezing, so whatever. Except the guy we're renting from here came in today with a bundle of small space heaters.

"I got somethin' for ya." he says, pulling the box from under his arm. "Here ya go."
"Dang, man. How much was this?" I said, not really parsing the breach of etiquette on this one, since I'm kind of surprised.
"Nothin', I don't need you to pay me back for this. Nobody ought to be cold, and there's a reason that heat's off, so..."
Well, needless to say, I thanked him, and it's a little chillier then normal, so I'm glad to have the device pumping heat into my poorly insulated room. It's set on low next to me, but I'm wonderin' if something's going on. Oughtn't worry, I guess, until something makes itself clear.

I wanted to finish up Persona 3 tonight, but it wasn't in the cards, so to speak. It's a long-ass game, and I realized that it had almost half a calander month left in game time while I wasn't getting hardly any exp from Tartarus monsters and there's really no where else to level before the final dungeon. I hoped to summon some high-end Persona by fusing some of the multiple high-level ones I've got when I discovered not all the quests had been opened up, and I was missing the ability to summon one or two from the 4-5-and-6 persona summons entirely, so I was feeling a little disenfranchised at this last corner of the game, and I'll probably take it slower until the end when I just run up and win. (probably)

One thing I like about the game is how it really kind of feels like Pokemon with mythical archtypes and gods. You can mash a bunch of angels together to get Messiah or beat the cards out of wandering monsters and collect them. There's Uriel. I found him on the ground, and now I summon him out of my unconcious to beat demons in the face.