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I live with my ST, which is awkward sometimes since we'll often spontaneously break into discussion about what's going on in games we're either playing or running. I don't get as heated about what actually happens as how it's perceived.
I hadn't intended to drink last night, but The J-Man spontaneously dropped by* with three 40s of Cobra, and I was assigned one, which I dutifully consumed. Perhaps that's the reason I became so irate about the opinion of my character's playing, which I have a totally different idea of then my ST. Without getting to in-depth on the specifics, I view his actions as the actions of someone who's had his worldview shaken to the core then put in a series of increasingly difficult, life-threatening decisions. The ST considers him to be 'flaky' and acting like a petulant child.
These things aren't, by definition, conflicting but that's really not the point. I guess what I'm getting at is that I have a very detailed idea of why my character does what he does, but nobody can see in to my head, so the character just looks indecisive or flaky. I tried to explain why he acted like he did, and got the brush off.
"Frankly, I think you're kind of acting like a jackass." I said. This was improper, of course, but I guess I should mention that we take our Exalted pretty seriously though I wasn't really angry though I was extremely frustrated to explain something and actually be told I was incorrect about my own characters motivations.
"I'm just telling you what it looks like when you play." he said.
"But you don't even believe in the death of the author!" I exclaimed, exasperated at that point.
"I don't even know what death of the author is."
Which is a good retort, by the by. But I realized that if I died, there'd only be records of my play to inform the other players, but they wouldn't have perfect insight into my actions. This is something I realized when my ST played a previous character of mine and asserted that, off-stage, he would act in a certain manner. I had a minor objection to it, and he asserted that his 'reading' of the character is more legitimate in the context of the game then my own. It sounded a bit like megalomania at the time, and maybe it is, because I believe the act of play has significant differences then the act of reading a character, but I'm not totally sure.
I hadn't intended to drink last night, but The J-Man spontaneously dropped by* with three 40s of Cobra, and I was assigned one, which I dutifully consumed. Perhaps that's the reason I became so irate about the opinion of my character's playing, which I have a totally different idea of then my ST. Without getting to in-depth on the specifics, I view his actions as the actions of someone who's had his worldview shaken to the core then put in a series of increasingly difficult, life-threatening decisions. The ST considers him to be 'flaky' and acting like a petulant child.
These things aren't, by definition, conflicting but that's really not the point. I guess what I'm getting at is that I have a very detailed idea of why my character does what he does, but nobody can see in to my head, so the character just looks indecisive or flaky. I tried to explain why he acted like he did, and got the brush off.
"Frankly, I think you're kind of acting like a jackass." I said. This was improper, of course, but I guess I should mention that we take our Exalted pretty seriously though I wasn't really angry though I was extremely frustrated to explain something and actually be told I was incorrect about my own characters motivations.
"I'm just telling you what it looks like when you play." he said.
"But you don't even believe in the death of the author!" I exclaimed, exasperated at that point.
"I don't even know what death of the author is."
Which is a good retort, by the by. But I realized that if I died, there'd only be records of my play to inform the other players, but they wouldn't have perfect insight into my actions. This is something I realized when my ST played a previous character of mine and asserted that, off-stage, he would act in a certain manner. I had a minor objection to it, and he asserted that his 'reading' of the character is more legitimate in the context of the game then my own. It sounded a bit like megalomania at the time, and maybe it is, because I believe the act of play has significant differences then the act of reading a character, but I'm not totally sure.
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