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Blah blah essays. I've been pretty one track even if you were right here, it's usually either work, zoning out, or me griping about writing. The amount of time that's passed is really pretty astounding, but I'm not really under any actual pressure to produce anything at all in the really near future, so I don't really care. Almost every day, I take some new notes, clarify some concepts, or pull up a new source to use. I'm really out of practice and I don't really have any coaching, so I'm re-learning a lot of old habits almost from scratch. Jamming my notes together could probably actually count as the essay at this point, but I don't need to do that so I won't.
I haven't been doing much reading for fun or gaming of any kind lately. I had Silent Hill 4 on my to-play list just about forever now, and it's not really been enjoyable. Like, for mechanical reasons, really. It's got muddy controls and frustrating enemies that stop being scary and, while they still produce anxiety, frustration is really the word of the day for me. So I've quit it and put it aside for another time when I have more patience for that kind of thing, but I've already talked about frustration in horror gaming, both in terms of video games and in table top, so basically it's just one of those situations where the mechanics pull you out of your gaming session and turn the situation into a trial that you just want to get past as a gamer and not as the protagonist.
Despite the bad weather here, spring is really very close. It'll be here all of a sudden, so Katie, myself, and some nearby friends are all making plans to be ready for it. We've started some plants in the animal room already (where it's a significantly higher ambient temperature and humidity because we keep snakes), and we're looking forward to kind of springing into action. We're also making vacation plans, and we should be travelling from the 17th to the 24th of April to New York (both upstate and the city). The pace is much too frantic to be entirely comfortable for me, but we have a fair amount of obligatory visitations. I haven't had a vacation in a really long time and, honestly, we can't really afford it right now, but both of our grandparents are getting up there in years and I've been trying to make it out since a little before I was laid off at Boeing. So I feel like since we can probably squeak the trip out financially, we kind of have to do it now rather than later. And really, I think we'll be glad we did.
I haven't been doing much reading for fun or gaming of any kind lately. I had Silent Hill 4 on my to-play list just about forever now, and it's not really been enjoyable. Like, for mechanical reasons, really. It's got muddy controls and frustrating enemies that stop being scary and, while they still produce anxiety, frustration is really the word of the day for me. So I've quit it and put it aside for another time when I have more patience for that kind of thing, but I've already talked about frustration in horror gaming, both in terms of video games and in table top, so basically it's just one of those situations where the mechanics pull you out of your gaming session and turn the situation into a trial that you just want to get past as a gamer and not as the protagonist.
Despite the bad weather here, spring is really very close. It'll be here all of a sudden, so Katie, myself, and some nearby friends are all making plans to be ready for it. We've started some plants in the animal room already (where it's a significantly higher ambient temperature and humidity because we keep snakes), and we're looking forward to kind of springing into action. We're also making vacation plans, and we should be travelling from the 17th to the 24th of April to New York (both upstate and the city). The pace is much too frantic to be entirely comfortable for me, but we have a fair amount of obligatory visitations. I haven't had a vacation in a really long time and, honestly, we can't really afford it right now, but both of our grandparents are getting up there in years and I've been trying to make it out since a little before I was laid off at Boeing. So I feel like since we can probably squeak the trip out financially, we kind of have to do it now rather than later. And really, I think we'll be glad we did.