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I'm at the part of the year where I'm pretty much thinking of essay work all the time - in the car, when I'm eating, in my dreams. I don't have to bother to exaggerate, since it's a thing. I don't consider that to be a bad thing, really. I'm really into what I'm doing. I have anxiety about doing my work well, and the dynamic for that kind of thing is really strange to me. Work I do in my free time, where I'm not concerned about who's looking over my shoulder - not exactly zero-stakes but close - I feel pretty confident about. Classwork always feels rushed, though. The stress doesn't cause me to freeze up, though - it doesn't really galvanize me, either, to be real honest with you. It's just there. I generally just try to ignore it. It's not doing much for me, except for that lightheaded feeling when it dissapates after the submission of a set of work.
My reading to completion's fallen behind, which isn't really all that surprising. First, my recreational reading's Manning Marable's Malcom X which isn't especially difficult reading but it's pretty lengthy and doesn't really move as fast as fiction does for me. I'm also doing a lot of re-reading and writing, so the whole recreation thing isn't happening as often, except during breaks for a bit of relaxation. Same for not playing games, really. I popped Fable III in some time ago and, while it was okay enough to play in a general kind of way, it's not super compelling yet and I'm just way too busy. Planning is difficult, and money's also tight, so I just keep myself focused on what I can manage at the moment.
Even though I didn't really anticipate writing on Sedgwick for my 502, I realized that her essay "The Beast in the Closet" could really stand to intersect a little better with a feminist reading. She kind of touches on how she's focused on the gay male identity in her Introduction, and I generally appreciate her writing, but I think she missed a good opportunity to touch on male objectification of female bodies and how male-male relationships actually trouble patriarchal society at least in the way that Sedgwick describes it functioning in relation to the idea of 'the bachelor' (versus the Byronic hero).
I'm still waiting to hear back about the last minute TA position. It'd be nice if I could get it and I'd like to take the oppertunity to ask around other places if I knew I wasn't. Even though it's not a sure thing, though, what I've heard is fairly promising.
My reading to completion's fallen behind, which isn't really all that surprising. First, my recreational reading's Manning Marable's Malcom X which isn't especially difficult reading but it's pretty lengthy and doesn't really move as fast as fiction does for me. I'm also doing a lot of re-reading and writing, so the whole recreation thing isn't happening as often, except during breaks for a bit of relaxation. Same for not playing games, really. I popped Fable III in some time ago and, while it was okay enough to play in a general kind of way, it's not super compelling yet and I'm just way too busy. Planning is difficult, and money's also tight, so I just keep myself focused on what I can manage at the moment.
Even though I didn't really anticipate writing on Sedgwick for my 502, I realized that her essay "The Beast in the Closet" could really stand to intersect a little better with a feminist reading. She kind of touches on how she's focused on the gay male identity in her Introduction, and I generally appreciate her writing, but I think she missed a good opportunity to touch on male objectification of female bodies and how male-male relationships actually trouble patriarchal society at least in the way that Sedgwick describes it functioning in relation to the idea of 'the bachelor' (versus the Byronic hero).
I'm still waiting to hear back about the last minute TA position. It'd be nice if I could get it and I'd like to take the oppertunity to ask around other places if I knew I wasn't. Even though it's not a sure thing, though, what I've heard is fairly promising.