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My thoughts on my situation are pretty complicated, and if anyone is really interested in knowing what's going on in my head pertaining to things now, well I don't mind saying. It's just, I tried writing them out, and they're long. Right? And that's probably dull.
Every morning I wake up and I ask, "Am I cool waking up here?" and when I send in a resume, I ask, "Would I be cool working and living here?" I always want to say, "No, I'd like to go home, with everything that entails." but I don't. That's not how I feel. I wish my friends were a short jaunt away, and I wish I could hang out like I used to. But I don't miss how I felt back there.
It's not geographical, it's emotional. It was a hopeless feeling; a nearly tangible force in which I felt I was slowly drowning. If I go back, it'll be on my terms, but I don't want to even while there are potent, compelling feelings acting on other levels.
Every morning I wake up and I ask, "Am I cool waking up here?" and when I send in a resume, I ask, "Would I be cool working and living here?" I always want to say, "No, I'd like to go home, with everything that entails." but I don't. That's not how I feel. I wish my friends were a short jaunt away, and I wish I could hang out like I used to. But I don't miss how I felt back there.
It's not geographical, it's emotional. It was a hopeless feeling; a nearly tangible force in which I felt I was slowly drowning. If I go back, it'll be on my terms, but I don't want to even while there are potent, compelling feelings acting on other levels.
