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Jolene moved out today, left a lot of stuff for the birds (as it were), and I got back from an apartment viewing not too long ago that indicates that I might have a nice place to live very soon indeed, without bankrupting me on the initial move-in. That last bit, as I'm sure you're aware, is of some note for myself. Up until now, I had been expecting to push my savings to the very last 50-100 bucks to secure lodging and immediate bills. If I don't have to do that, I can open the budget to some food stuffs, which is just as well since the cupboard is fairly bare.
I have reason to be optimistic and, perhaps, even precedent at this point. What a dangerous feeling. I am leaning towards the safe end of the spectrum rather then the sorry one.
My game is indeed cancelled this weekend. I briefly mentioned that I'd consider a Mage one shot because it's already prepared, and nobody bit so I didn't push it. So, Mage next weekend, Exalted after that. The Mage game is the first session out of Reign of the Exarchs, modified to my needs. Exalted is going to be pushing my ST limits, which is what I need. I know I can get people to sit down, but now I ought to be able to put the effort in.
That may sound quite silly, but the stress I was feeling made it difficult to focus. I can feel it ease up and I don't feel so shitty about spending hours on these sessions. What I believe the cause is, that when I'm focused on critical matters, anything that doesn't directly relate to that feels like cheating. If I'm not worried about that, I can focus.
On the near-future list is looking back into active larping with the Seattle Cam. I'm still dubious, so we'll need to see if I feel I've got the time to put into it enough to make it worthwhile. There are a lot of things I'd actually need do, so it's a question of asking if I want to start trying to build up the momentum. I know for a fact that many of you know how much time it can take up.
I have reason to be optimistic and, perhaps, even precedent at this point. What a dangerous feeling. I am leaning towards the safe end of the spectrum rather then the sorry one.
My game is indeed cancelled this weekend. I briefly mentioned that I'd consider a Mage one shot because it's already prepared, and nobody bit so I didn't push it. So, Mage next weekend, Exalted after that. The Mage game is the first session out of Reign of the Exarchs, modified to my needs. Exalted is going to be pushing my ST limits, which is what I need. I know I can get people to sit down, but now I ought to be able to put the effort in.
That may sound quite silly, but the stress I was feeling made it difficult to focus. I can feel it ease up and I don't feel so shitty about spending hours on these sessions. What I believe the cause is, that when I'm focused on critical matters, anything that doesn't directly relate to that feels like cheating. If I'm not worried about that, I can focus.
On the near-future list is looking back into active larping with the Seattle Cam. I'm still dubious, so we'll need to see if I feel I've got the time to put into it enough to make it worthwhile. There are a lot of things I'd actually need do, so it's a question of asking if I want to start trying to build up the momentum. I know for a fact that many of you know how much time it can take up.
